Sunday, October 14, 2007
Getting out of Control
I ate a whole container of cream cheese frosting. That's just wrong. I need help. Lithium seems to be holding me at bay... although I feel like I want to flip, if that makes sense. Like it's a release... like when you are trying desperately not to cry and it hurts. When you do let go that pain goes with it. I am feeling like that... like I want to let go and flip but I can't. Why do I want to? It's a scary place there. I still feel useless and that I am a burden. I want to be happy again. ok.. I guess I think happiness is based on happenings... my happenings haven't changed much... so I guess what I am feeling is the loss of joy. I think my 'joy' chemicals are out of balance. : )
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it is sooooooooooooooooooooooooo hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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lol its soooooooooooooo easy dude !
how can it be hard =Þ æ =Þ
I have the same problem. I am addicted to candy! I know what you are going through. I eat all the time! And I keep telling myself that I am going to stop in a few days and get in control, yet I can't ever get into control. I need help! Sometimes when I want to eat, I play games on the computer and once I finish a game, if I still want food, I go then. But usually, I get involved in the game and can forget about the food for a while. Try one of these free Ghost Game
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